Today's guest blogger is Emily Duffey. Emily is on staff at Reigning Grace Counseling Center. I know you will enjoy reading this, and you just might end up rather convicted as well!
months ago I got my first dog.
had about 9-10 cats growing up. I know how to take care of a cat! Dogs,
however, are a completely different story. I have had quite a few adventures
learning how to train a puppy (poor comparison, but I have a bit more
compassion for my friends who are potty training their little ones now!). I
have had a lot of laughs, too. She is an endless source of groaning and
interesting behavior I have observed in the dog kingdom is when a dog sniffs intently
and then dive bombs the spot (usually outdoors in the grass), turning over onto
its back, and rolls with delight. The first few times I saw my puppy do this I
thought it was cute. She was sure having a lot of fun! Then someone explained
to me that when a dog does this, they have smelled where another dog has gone
to the bathroom. They are literally rolling in the defecation of another animal.
It wasn’t so pretty anymore. Needless to say, she immediately had a bath.
day I was slightly surprised to see her get sick outside (too many hors
d’oeuvres of dandelions and bugs, perhaps?) and immediately return to where she
got sick and started to sniff. I picked her up in horror before her sickness
became her pâté snack… that was
simply too much for MY stomach to tolerate!
afternoon as I gave her one of her plentiful baths to rid her of whatever she
rolled in/stepped on/ attacked/ ran through/generally soiled herself with for
the moment, a little proverb came to mind:
Like a dog that returns to its
vomit Is a fool who repeats his folly. (Proverbs 26:11)
read this verse countless times before, but all of a sudden it made sense.
Watching my puppy immediately return to her vomit after getting sick was a bit
of a surprise to me. Most humans I know recoil at the sight—but not a dog. They
are keenly interested in whatever it was that just came back up. Not only do
they go back to check it out, it is this kind of thing they delight in.
started to think about the things in my life that I should recoil in horror
from—the most obvious being my sin. How often do I return to my sinful habits
and not only poke at it and sniff it, but roll around in it and delight in it?
Peter takes the illustration a step further by adding how a pig, after getting
cleaned up, returns to the mud to wallow (2 Peter 2:22). How often do I do
this? How often do I ‘get cleaned up’ (often resembling something along the
lines of attrition—feeling bad for my sin, or regretting the fact I was caught,
but not bad enough to make any lasting change), clean up my act, and after a
little bit of time has passed, return to it? What is it in my heart that leads
me back to wallow in the mire? What is so enticing about my nauseating sin that
I return to it time and time again for a second (or third or fourth or…)
examination? The answer was simple and crushing: I loved my sin more than I
continue to sin in a repeated manner, going through the cycle of attrition
without any genuine repentance, it dulls my senses. My heart becomes hardened.
It is a scary thing indeed when one hardens her own heart. You not only delight
in your sin—you love it. It becomes your most treasured object. You worship it.
It is a gracious gift of God when your eyes are opened to the heinousness of
your sin in these moments. There are times when small glimpses of the
wickedness in our hearts is revealed that we return immediately to our true
lover—the idol of our heart. The Lord is gracious and merciful, however, and
will not let His beloved remain in her sin. The Lord is a jealous God,
protecting His honor and glory. A true child of God will not remain forever in
the pig pen.
repentance—a forsaking, a turning away—must occur in the heart of the person
desiring to honor and glorify God with her life. Do you keep returning to
examine and delight in your sin? Turn to the cross. Pray for a greater view of
God. Pray for the desire to “stay repentant” and not return to your vomit,
playing the part of the fool.
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